suicide prevention month

here we are in the middle of suicide prevention month
which seems so ludicrous.
a month.
just one month.
every moment should be about this, not in a big ads-on-billboards sort of way, but in our awareness of the possibility, our openness to starting and staying in difficult conversations

i do not know how many suicides can actually be prevented
once the decision is made

but i do know this:
there is time before.

and i do know this:
i wish i had done more before time ran out.